Coping with Autoimmune Diseases: The Beginning
Hi, how are you?
Me? I am okay. Hmm, to be honest, I was diagnosed with Hashimoto's disease, or known as underactive thyroid. Around 2018, a year after giving birth, I got tired easily, both physically and mentally. I thought that it was a baby blues syndrome, so I tried to cope with it. There were several times that I wanted to suicide, but luckily, I have great support system around me, so here I am, still alive. However, there was one thing that I noticed from my neck. It looked like there was a lump in the center of my neck, the gland.
So I went to a hospital to check my condition, getting the USG and TSH check. The results went out and the doctor said that I got the hypothyroidism. I was shocked, but I managed to think that it was just it. The surgery would be able to help me. Soon after, I got the medicines and went home. I decided not to take the medicines since I was still breastfeeding at that time.
Two years after, in the end of 2020, I noticed that my lump looked bigger, so I thought that it would be the right time for surgery. In the early January, 2021, I checked my condition in order to ask for surgery. The result went out, and it was not what I expected. I was diagnosed with autoimmune disease. To be honest, there were several times I searched for autoimmune diseases since there were some people I knew took the treatments for that. I was just curious. Never have I imagined that I would walk in the same way as they do.
The things that really disturb me are the fatigue and depression itself. Whenever I tell my husband about my condition, he never thinks that this is serious, yet I always tell him what I feel. I am afraid that if someday my depression goes worse, he has no idea what happens. This July, I decide to stop being a teacher since it takes too much of my time and energy. I always start my day with a drained energy, surprisingly I survived, every single day. Thank God.
Now, I only do what I can do: take my medicines and work only if my mind and body allow me. I no longer drag myself only to make others happy. Probably this also one of reasons why I write again, which is to express myself and to make myself better. Writing is healing, huh?
I will update you with my condition. If you pass this blog because you have the same condition as mine, let's walk through this together. Up to this point, find a reason why you want to be healed: mine, I want to survive and alive solely because of my son. If one day I have to go away because of this disease, I know that he will not be alone. He has the same support system as mine, and a great daddy who will look after him.
See you again:)
Me? I am okay. Hmm, to be honest, I was diagnosed with Hashimoto's disease, or known as underactive thyroid. Around 2018, a year after giving birth, I got tired easily, both physically and mentally. I thought that it was a baby blues syndrome, so I tried to cope with it. There were several times that I wanted to suicide, but luckily, I have great support system around me, so here I am, still alive. However, there was one thing that I noticed from my neck. It looked like there was a lump in the center of my neck, the gland.
So I went to a hospital to check my condition, getting the USG and TSH check. The results went out and the doctor said that I got the hypothyroidism. I was shocked, but I managed to think that it was just it. The surgery would be able to help me. Soon after, I got the medicines and went home. I decided not to take the medicines since I was still breastfeeding at that time.
Two years after, in the end of 2020, I noticed that my lump looked bigger, so I thought that it would be the right time for surgery. In the early January, 2021, I checked my condition in order to ask for surgery. The result went out, and it was not what I expected. I was diagnosed with autoimmune disease. To be honest, there were several times I searched for autoimmune diseases since there were some people I knew took the treatments for that. I was just curious. Never have I imagined that I would walk in the same way as they do.
The things that really disturb me are the fatigue and depression itself. Whenever I tell my husband about my condition, he never thinks that this is serious, yet I always tell him what I feel. I am afraid that if someday my depression goes worse, he has no idea what happens. This July, I decide to stop being a teacher since it takes too much of my time and energy. I always start my day with a drained energy, surprisingly I survived, every single day. Thank God.
Now, I only do what I can do: take my medicines and work only if my mind and body allow me. I no longer drag myself only to make others happy. Probably this also one of reasons why I write again, which is to express myself and to make myself better. Writing is healing, huh?
I will update you with my condition. If you pass this blog because you have the same condition as mine, let's walk through this together. Up to this point, find a reason why you want to be healed: mine, I want to survive and alive solely because of my son. If one day I have to go away because of this disease, I know that he will not be alone. He has the same support system as mine, and a great daddy who will look after him.
See you again:)
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