Hello, world - an update

 Hello, world. How's life treating you?

These days, I find it hard to get reasons to wake up and chew whatever is served on my table. 

I find it hard to cheer my husband on his hard days, and I find it hard to accompany my son growing up as he starts counting days.

I find it hard to remember the songs I wanted to listen again the previous days. 

I find it hard to work on an easy project that has been delayed for so long. 

Even, it's hard just to open my laptop and start writing. Though, as long as I could remember, I love writing too much to even consider it as a burden. 

In other way, I started reading motivational books, eating less rice and sugar, limiting my socmed hours and setting boundaries to other people. 

If you know me, you will notice how I used to love cheering other people untl they can stand up on their feet again after being stumbled for long. But now, look at how I am tired to open Whatsapp to even say "Yes." or "No, sorry." 

I think I lost purposes. I was that girl who shouted "bring it on!" or "let's face it" and now I become a mom who does not know what to cook every single morning. 

My friend who studies psychology said that my love tank is running out. I told my husband I need him, but seeing at how time is too limited to him, I could not ask for more. 

Looking at my son, I think he can fill it with love. But you know, he is just four! oh for God's sake! 

I don't want to update in social media as there are too many people there. Thus, blogging is the only way I can let my chest out, and be sane again. 

So, it's time for you to tell me. How's life treating you?